tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6160641686243620828.post327993582559214553..comments2018-08-15T02:10:58.104-04:00Comments on Snow Daisy: Knowing God - Ephesians 2:14Chris Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13165756471868207888noreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6160641686243620828.post-80058728446711118152011-01-01T15:02:31.613-05:002011-01-01T15:02:31.613-05:00I just found the last 2 comments in the spam folde...I just found the last 2 comments in the spam folder. Yes - opening up face to face is difficult. nearly impossible. I like writing. This forum gives me a place to write, express my thoughts, in a way that is non-threatening, non-confrontational. I can say what I want to say without interruption. I can ignore comments or respond to them. And I can always password protect the blog to control who has access. But - I believe that there have to be others hurting like I do out there, but have no way of expressing what they feel or think. <br /><br />Keep commenting ... please.Chris Khttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13165756471868207888noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6160641686243620828.post-20875773689048501482010-12-13T14:54:32.411-05:002010-12-13T14:54:32.411-05:00my purpose in writing you is only as a positive so...my purpose in writing you is only as a positive sounding board. i have no intent of causing you further issues or more pain. you told me that you have a problem opening up face to face, and when i see you, i see the veil drop over your face. but i searched and found you here. in your comfort zone. and you open up freely. if you know who i am, the veil will drop again. and by not knowing, there is the possibility that everyone you walk by could be the one who cares.<br /><br />you write on a public domain. anyone in the world could read what you write. i doubt that this will ever be the avenue to work on trust issues. but if responding is causing more harm than good, i will stop responding.<br /><br />at some point, when things are easier for you, i will tell you who i am. but for now i would rather you just know that an anonymous face in the crowd wishes healing for youAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6160641686243620828.post-87083524942575731352010-12-13T09:22:53.957-05:002010-12-13T09:22:53.957-05:00i apologize if i add to your burden. i mean no wro...i apologize if i add to your burden. i mean no wrong intent. my only intent in talking with you is for you to know there is a friend who wants nothing but healing and blessings for you. by not knowing who i am, you may view every face you see as a kind heart.<br /><br />the issue of trust has never been discussed by us here until now. to my face you said you have a hard time opening up to people because of trust issues. when you see me, the "veil of safety" comes over your face. but here, for the whole world to see, you feel safe. that is why i searched for you here. i have no intent to be anything but a positive sounding board. if you would prefer for me never to respond, i would honor that choice.<br /><br />but remember. you journal on a public domain. anyone in the world can journey into your life. will you ever establish a relationship of trust in this way? when you make it through this season of testing, i want to embrace you, look in your eyes and see the veil is gone and tell you i am your friend who is not going to leave you. but if i tell you this in the season you are in, the veil will close on this stage as well. so for now, i have a name. it is "anonymous with love"Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6160641686243620828.post-68663928952229312202010-12-12T22:22:49.760-05:002010-12-12T22:22:49.760-05:00so - not telling me who you are. you read this and...so - not telling me who you are. you read this and know that trust - or lack there of - is something I am battling. don't you think that this is one way of perpetuating this?Chris Khttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13165756471868207888noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6160641686243620828.post-2304270381675909272010-12-12T15:23:06.081-05:002010-12-12T15:23:06.081-05:00who am I? one of those who you fear to talk to in ...who am I? one of those who you fear to talk to in person. so i peeked around the wall and found you here.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6160641686243620828.post-90754089984326073432010-12-11T22:08:53.277-05:002010-12-11T22:08:53.277-05:00who are you?who are you?Chris Khttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13165756471868207888noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6160641686243620828.post-48476966556948727212010-12-11T11:26:37.238-05:002010-12-11T11:26:37.238-05:00very few people do anything right the first time. ...very few people do anything right the first time. practice. try again. practice. try again. thats life's pattern. to never try is to never succeed. the only thing in life i don't need to practice is all my mistakes. they come naturally. but i try to learn from them. that is the only way i know to grow.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6160641686243620828.post-51070350946382962862010-12-11T10:37:11.941-05:002010-12-11T10:37:11.941-05:00Hiding behind the wall is safe and familiar. Hone...Hiding behind the wall is safe and familiar. Honestly, I don't know if I am strong enough for the wall to come down. I know I will fail. I don't diet because when given strict rules and 'don't do's' I rebel against them. I also know that I can't follow through like I know I should and I was taught that if I can't do something right the first time, don't bother doing it. <br /><br />I have experienced the light. It was peaceful and joyful and amazing. Then the light slowly faded and darkness returned. I didn't seek it. But I didn't have the strength to fight it either. It just surrounds and envelopes me. The negative thoughts come unbidden. Automatic. That isn't something that can just be easily replaced.Chris Khttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13165756471868207888noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6160641686243620828.post-59166766915034795852010-12-11T08:46:27.636-05:002010-12-11T08:46:27.636-05:00Be drawn to the light and never look at the shadow...Be drawn to the light and never look at the shadow.<br />And then make a decision. Do I want a wall to come down or not. Only you know and no one can do it for you. There is no magic word or pill. All of PE's devotions are instructions for tearing the wall down and walking the path with Jesus. But we each have to honestly make the decision to do so. It like dieting or addiction. Wanting to be healed doesn't magically make the underlying issues go away. But one day, you hit your limit, you have had enough, you will go the distance, not give in to temptation and be what you want to be. If you don't want to go home to your beautiful family, tear the wall down. If you can't sleep because of the demons in your mind, take the wall down and replace it with something that brings you comfort and peace. And be ready for the fight the demons (satan) will put up when its easier to succumb than change. Winning the battle is well worth the fight. Once you find the light you will never seek the darkness again. God Bless you. If I could hold your hand and drag you to the light I would.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com