born again ...

In church this morning Pastor preached on John 3 when Nicodemus snuck to Jesus under the cloak of darkness and talked with him under the cone of silence about being born again.  He talked about being Born Again - salvation - accepting Christ as your savior - a major moment in your life. (and something talked about very often in the church I grew up in) And being born again in many different ways throughout life.  Life changes that help a person to continue growing up toward Christ. Enables them to show Christ out to others and in their own hearts and families.

The past few days especially I have truly realized God's power in my life.  His love and caring. How much he has worked in me. To help me regain a desire to live. I have whined about being lonely, but didn't want to continue facing rejection of trying to reach out to others for friendship.  Being lonely is still hard, but ... dare I say it? ... I have hope for my future. I feel like I am living - really living for the first time!  I am discovering that I don't need the things I thought I needed.  I am growing closer to Christ - the only 'thing' I need.  As Pastor was wrapping up the sermon and once again tears were running down my cheeks - the song below came to my mind.  Then a couple came up and sang it. It has been running through my head ever since.

Born Again by Mac Powell

Today I found myself

After searching all these years

And the man that I saw, he wasn't at all who I thought he'd be

I was lost when you found me here

And I was broken beyond repair

Then you came along and you sang your song over me

It feels like I'm born again

It feels like I'm living

For the very first time

For the very first time

In my life

Make a promise to me now

Reassure my heart somehow

That the love that I feel is so much more real than anything

I've a feeling in my soul

And I pray that I'm not wrong

That the life I have now, it is only the beginning

It feels like I'm born again

It feels like I'm living

For the very first time

For the very first time

It feels like I'm breathing

It feels like I'm moving

For the very first time

For the very first time

I wasn't looking for something that was more

Than what I had yesterday

Then you came to me and you gave to me

Life and a love that I've never known

That I've never felt before

It feels like I'm born again

It feels like I'm living

For the very first time

I'm living for the first time

It feels like I'm breathing

It feels like I'm moving

For the very first time

I'm living for the first time

In my life 

... a gal who is starting to really live in hope ...