More than fear
I fear God. He wants us to fear him. It isn't a bad thing. He is not a tame God.
Fear: respectful dread; awe; reverence, a feeling of uneasiness or apprehension; concern
Scared: a sudden fear or panic; attack of fright, often unreasonable, a state of widespread fear or panic
At the same time, I am scared. Terrified. And I do NOT like it. I am scared that I am going to get forever sucked into this journey I am on and not find my way out. I am facing medical appointments and health issues that I'd rather ignore. However, the fact that I have been ignoring them is why I am at this point. I am scared of myself. Do I really want to get healthy? Do really want to know God? Or do I want to go hide?
This is so much more than fear. This is unreasonable. this is almost panic. I am out and out scared. Terrified.
Fear: respectful dread; awe; reverence, a feeling of uneasiness or apprehension; concern
Scared: a sudden fear or panic; attack of fright, often unreasonable, a state of widespread fear or panic
At the same time, I am scared. Terrified. And I do NOT like it. I am scared that I am going to get forever sucked into this journey I am on and not find my way out. I am facing medical appointments and health issues that I'd rather ignore. However, the fact that I have been ignoring them is why I am at this point. I am scared of myself. Do I really want to get healthy? Do really want to know God? Or do I want to go hide?
This is so much more than fear. This is unreasonable. this is almost panic. I am out and out scared. Terrified.
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